Health is not valued till sickness comes.” – Dr. Thomas Fuller
Life with a chronic illness is a struggle to say the least. Our bodies are waging a war against ourselves. It gets even more challenging when you are struggle with multiple illnesses. Seriously, this is a collection I didn’t need.
We fight for health every day in ways most people don’t understand. We do so one step at a time, one foot in front of the other. Our legs often feel like noodles that can’t support the weight of our bodies.
We may crack, but we don’t break.
There are no magical cures. Some illnesses have no cure at all.
“Sometimes the strongest among us are the ones who smile through silent pain, cry behind closed doors, and fight battles nobody knows about.” – Unknown
We may not look sick, but every day is a fight. It can be a struggle to get up when we want nothing more than to stay in bed and sleep the days away. It can be a difficult endeavour to get dressed, look like we’re awake, smile when we want to cry, putting on a brave face for everyone. Even the simplest of task, like taking a shower, can take the wind out of us.
“I’m just tired.” There is a big difference between a healthy person saying “I’m tired.” and someone with a chronic illness saying the exact same thing. What we are really saying is : “I’m exhausted, in so much pain all over, every breath is a struggle. I am drained physically and emotionally. It’s almost impossible for me to complete very simple tasks.”
“She’s strong but she’s exhausted.” – r.h. Sin
Please believe me when I say we aren’t lazy. There is no quick fix for chronic illness exhaustion. Having a chronic illness drains us entirely. There is not enough sleep in a life time to cure the fatigue. Please don’t judge what you can’t possibly understand. You don’t know what it took for us to get out of bed, look as presentable as possible and face the day. Every movement can be a fight against my body and the most common task seem like climbing a mountain.We spend all day doing our best to accomplish as much as we can.
“Sometime you’ll be in control of your illness and other times you will sink into despair and that’s okay. Freak out, forgive yourself, and try again another day.” – Unknown
It’s difficult to explain to someone who has no idea of the daily struggles we face. In my case, having separate autoimmune disease is constant pain, nausea, emotional roller-coaster and physical limitations.
We fake a smile and say we’re okay, but in reality, more often than not we are barely making it through the day. It takes real talent to fake being well on the outside when you feel horrible on the inside.
“The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us but those who win battles we know nothing about.” – Unknown
We don’t always talk about all our symptoms. We don’t always admit when we’re not feeling well. We often put on a happy face. It’s easier that way.
We are constantly being pushed to our breaking point and it never ends. We adapt. Our lives changes. We go on with whatever compromises we have been forced to make. We are tired. We are physically and emotional drained, but we keep going. The pain never stops. We are fighting this internal battle alone and there’s no end in sight. We are stronger than you’ll ever know. We fight every day. We are warriors. We fight and we survive. There is no other way.