Getting older is nothing to be afraid of. I’m turning 40. Apparently, this is an important step worth commemorating another successful revolution around the sun.
I am thankful for how far I’ve come and all the life lessons I’ve learned along the way. As I grew into myself, I started making choices that are in alignment with my internal compass. I strive to keep my heart and mind in the right place.
A lot of money is made by convincing women that they aren’t beautiful, smart or important as soon as they start getting grey hair. I got my first grey hair at the age of 2. My mother kept it as a keepsake. In high school, my grey began to show more. As I started looking for employment, I felt pressured into colouring my hair. I did so until a year ago approximately, when I decided I wanted to let my natural colour shine. It bothered people at first that I would let myself be grey in my 30s. So what? I find myself a lot happier and more confident when I embraced my body at the stage it’s in. There is so much more to life and we truly have no idea how beautiful we are.
There would be a lot fewer people feeling depressed about birthdays and numbers if we weren’t constantly inundated with the message that we gain the right to occupy a space on this planet by being pretty and young.
In the last year, I rocked my natural hair colour, been diagnosed and treated for Graves Disease and Hyperthyroidism. I got married to a wonderful man and we purchased a home together. We are also raising 3 wonderful kids together, which can also be challenging at times. I have been diagnosed and treated for anxiety disorder and depression, which is a genetic trait on my dad’s side of the family. It’s been a real roller coaster of ups and downs and I couldn’t ask for more because in the end, I am surrounded by people who love me and that is what is important in life. I’m lucky.
I may not be doing my dream job, but I have a good one. It’s something I can be proud of. I’m also working on my passion and hoping that one of these days it will become more than a pastime. It’s never too late to build on your dreams.
“Life isn’t about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself.” – Unknown
If there’s something I’ve learned over the years is that you have to be good to yourself. Stop worrying about people’s eyes and live for yourself. Drop anyone who belittles you or makes you feel worse than you really are. In the end, there’s only one thing that counts, to be at ease with you who truly are.
“I would rather die of passion than boredom.” – Van Gogh
I will continue to share my journey and the insight along the way.