Flare Ups

I woke up this morning feeling like shit. Pardon my language. It felt like I was still in deep sleep. I could barely put one foot in front of the other. As I regain the feeling of my earthly body, I quickly realize why I should not be vertical. I had pain behind the eye and pressure around the brain, I could barely keep my eyes open, sound and light were incredibly painful. nausea was really bad. I hurt from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. Here’s to another round of flare ups.

I tried to get dress and get ready for work, but I didn’t make it. I emailed in sick at work and fell back in bed into a deep sleep filled with nightmares about pain. I literally dreamt that I was suffering from a really bad migraine and the house was filled with all kind of people making a lot of sounds and not giving a fuck about my suffering. You know you are in pain when that pain affects your dreams.

I feel bad because I woke up to text and emails from work. They really needed me there today, but unfortunately, I do not choose when I get flare-ups. It has been a while since my last one, which might be why this one felt like I was hit by a ton of brick and then passed over a couple of time by a heavy truck.

I took my pain medication and got a lot of rest. I am now leaning in bed with Netflix and my laptop as I start to feel partially human again. What do you do during flare-ups? 


5 thoughts on “Flare Ups

Add yours

      1. I’m sorry to hear that. I used to get them more regularly. It slowed down as I’m adjusting my meds monthly. I was hoping it was a good sign. Even I have to be reminded, controlled doesn’t mean cured.

      2. Right? Some days it’s really hard but there are good days. Some days I just wish for a cure. I can live with my bipolar disorder more so than all my physical ailments, including fibro. I know that sounds weird but it’s how it is for me. Plus, I think my mood shifts affect my pain.

I love hearing from you!

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Powered by

Up ↑

%d bloggers like this: